Don't read this if you need constant optimism

Hello. I'm still here. Honest. Just barely, but hangin' in. Baaad news in the mail in the way of unpaid bills (but I'm used to that), but then I found out that not only did I get a citation for parking on street cleaning day when....wait a minute, let me back up.

Last month the owner of my building had one of our driveways and the area in the back re-concreted. So while the work was going on, we had to park on the street. Which would have been bad enough in this neighborhood, busy as it is, but then the contractor blocked off the entire area in front of the building AND the place next door for his trucks!!!!! Anyway. On Monday night I parked my car after work at my temp job and went inside. And then later that night, found out I wasn't going back to that job. So my car was unthinkingly left on the street on street cleaning day. When I went out the next day, my car had the ticket on it. So I put the ticket away, I couldn't even bear to look at it. I haven't had any work income since that day.

So Friday I receive the wonderful surprise in the mail that not only was I given the $68 parking ticket, I was also cited $25 for expired tags. And that since I hadn't paid it, the cost had now increased to $202.

Then Saturday, when I was expecting my first unemployment check, I get a notice from EDD, but no check! I have to call them tomorrow and figure out what's going on.

Leaving me without rent money for January. I'm short about $400. FUCK. It's just so hard to be optimistic right now.

Anyway - big sale on heart pendants in my Etsy - $10 each through Valentine's Day! I'm gonna make a bunch more, too.

And I got to hang out with my local art buddies yesterday - that was wonderful! I haven't seen many of them for months. After awhile the talk turned to making money, (among those who ARE) and I got too bummed and had to leave. It was still a really nice time, and got me out of the apartment for a change.

I really want to upgrade the look and functionality of this blog, but right now I don't have the energy to figure out how. Soon, though.

Sorry about the rambling depressiveness. Now that I've named it and described it, the next step is moving on from it, which I WILL do. Dammit!